Whew, I'm glad you were able to make up the difference.

I understand about feeling uncomfortable taking those deductions -- although not only are they legal, but they're there for a reason, to encourage charitable giving and to make medical costs slightly less of a burden. You're not taking advantage of loopholes. But if you still feel bad about it, you could wait until you are in a better place financially and either give the money to charity or decline to take some other deduction on your taxes.